Just Me.

An end is near,
But I don't know if I can muster a tear.
So many emotions running,
I'm sick of all the worrying.
I now realize the need for peace,
And you can't provide that piece.
I've been living an unfinished puzzle,
Ready to for anything to juggle.
But it's not any other hand,
It's on me to somehow land.
I've got two solid feet,
And you can't be my fleet.
No more will you be the beacon,
For a short while you were the deacon.
Instructing and chanting for recovery,
But the true voice is within my own discovery.

Help for the Hopeless

This skin is bearing a crown,
Posture upright and tight,
Ready to conquer any fight.

Give in to the fight,
Protrude the chest
You'll figure out the rest.

The rest is yet to come,
It will no longer be yesterday,
And sorrow can no longer stay.

Sturdy and ready to say,
It is time to be selfish,
And make others jealous.

Others envy this strength
I have lying underneath my breastbone,
I'm going to rip my rib cage open.

The heart is pumping rapidly,
Amidst the peaceful flutter,
I crave life with no stutter.

Now is today,
I did not end this life of mine,
I just wasted some time.

Took me some falls
To see that I can stitch the pain,
Mend it back up for the rain.

Instead I can bask in the storm,
Revel in its nature to reveal
That nobody is alone
And everybody can heal.

Set Sail

This peace is a devilish stranger,
but it has delivered tonight an embrace,
a pleasure that I get from knowing
that you have lost grip to this face.
I am now and forever will be me,
no more captive to your flaws,
no more a basket case running,
on the floor crawling.
I am special,
I can now agree with others,
beautiful with much to offer,
to another man,
to this painted plain,
to my future in your hands.
Spiritual was never my backbone,
but I give this sorrow away,
ready for you to grace my life,
and start listening to what you have to say.
I am meant to be happy,
I have a life to begin,
now is the only time to try,
because I do not want to die.
I thought about it in days past,
but where would that leave me,
or any ingredient of my soul,
nowhere,
a place I no longer want to see.
I will not sink any further,
all these souls are trying to reach out,
trying to save me if I fail,
but they can stop trying,
i've got a hold of the sail.