Still hanging on.

I hate myself for taking me here again,

Between a place where others thrive

And I no longer begin.

When will I find the time for myself,

Now is all I’ve got

Because I’m nearing the spot.

Where I no longer exist

And my legacy

Will be all that’s left.

But do I have one?

I must be blind

Because I think I do.

I need to stop the pity,

Stop the need to cry

And filter out the run.

I need to stop running,

Away from everything in sight

Away from everything that could be good.

You put the sour in my mouth

And into my life,

But I can’t blame you forever.

I have a family at my face,

Friends near and far,

But my self is no where to be found.

I am long gone

With your soul in the ground,

I must dig it back up again.

Back up to the ground,

The soil at my feet,

The breeze at my lips.

Dance in the rain,

Roll in the grass,

Love to love.

Now is for me,

Once again,

But thankfully so,

Or I was about to lose it all again.