With Ease.

Come on in,
Pull my arms like putty
And plant the bass in my eardrum;
Give my mind heat like the sun.

I've got my armor right here,
Pain can't take me for a ride,
Or leave me alone in the dirt,
I've had plenty of time to hurt.

My pride sits right here on the bench,
Gently telling my leg to quit stomping
And my mind to stop racing,
'Let the silence beckon you to start listening'.

I have a heart of steel,
That no weapon can storm thru,
The cracks stitched and the dents blended,
It's time i start to mend.

So I stop all motion and say,
"I've got this,"
I can stomp on the crowd
And yell thru the fog,
I've "got a lot to live"
And any outsider
Can't drive me any other way.

Just Me.

An end is near,
But I don't know if I can muster a tear.
So many emotions running,
I'm sick of all the worrying.
I now realize the need for peace,
And you can't provide that piece.
I've been living an unfinished puzzle,
Ready to for anything to juggle.
But it's not any other hand,
It's on me to somehow land.
I've got two solid feet,
And you can't be my fleet.
No more will you be the beacon,
For a short while you were the deacon.
Instructing and chanting for recovery,
But the true voice is within my own discovery.

Help for the Hopeless

This skin is bearing a crown,
Posture upright and tight,
Ready to conquer any fight.

Give in to the fight,
Protrude the chest
You'll figure out the rest.

The rest is yet to come,
It will no longer be yesterday,
And sorrow can no longer stay.

Sturdy and ready to say,
It is time to be selfish,
And make others jealous.

Others envy this strength
I have lying underneath my breastbone,
I'm going to rip my rib cage open.

The heart is pumping rapidly,
Amidst the peaceful flutter,
I crave life with no stutter.

Now is today,
I did not end this life of mine,
I just wasted some time.

Took me some falls
To see that I can stitch the pain,
Mend it back up for the rain.

Instead I can bask in the storm,
Revel in its nature to reveal
That nobody is alone
And everybody can heal.

Set Sail

This peace is a devilish stranger,
but it has delivered tonight an embrace,
a pleasure that I get from knowing
that you have lost grip to this face.
I am now and forever will be me,
no more captive to your flaws,
no more a basket case running,
on the floor crawling.
I am special,
I can now agree with others,
beautiful with much to offer,
to another man,
to this painted plain,
to my future in your hands.
Spiritual was never my backbone,
but I give this sorrow away,
ready for you to grace my life,
and start listening to what you have to say.
I am meant to be happy,
I have a life to begin,
now is the only time to try,
because I do not want to die.
I thought about it in days past,
but where would that leave me,
or any ingredient of my soul,
nowhere,
a place I no longer want to see.
I will not sink any further,
all these souls are trying to reach out,
trying to save me if I fail,
but they can stop trying,
i've got a hold of the sail.

Still hanging on.

I hate myself for taking me here again,

Between a place where others thrive

And I no longer begin.

When will I find the time for myself,

Now is all I’ve got

Because I’m nearing the spot.

Where I no longer exist

And my legacy

Will be all that’s left.

But do I have one?

I must be blind

Because I think I do.

I need to stop the pity,

Stop the need to cry

And filter out the run.

I need to stop running,

Away from everything in sight

Away from everything that could be good.

You put the sour in my mouth

And into my life,

But I can’t blame you forever.

I have a family at my face,

Friends near and far,

But my self is no where to be found.

I am long gone

With your soul in the ground,

I must dig it back up again.

Back up to the ground,

The soil at my feet,

The breeze at my lips.

Dance in the rain,

Roll in the grass,

Love to love.

Now is for me,

Once again,

But thankfully so,

Or I was about to lose it all again.